Today my little girl turns 23 months old, meaning we only have one more month before she officially turns into a two year old.



And not only will that make her age match with her current clothing-size, but starting next month we are going to have to start aggressively getting rid of all the baby-things we’ve let her hold onto. And by all things, I mean her binky. Yep, Miss T STILL sucks on a pacifier. And while we’ve weaned her binky-time down to just naps and through the night, I am scared to death of how she’s gonna handle having her binky yanked. Scared. To. Death. It’s not gonne be pretty. And we have one more month before we have to deal with it – Start the countdown to a hysterical, non-sleeping Taylor... right... NOW.
And since we only have one month left of binky-full sanity, let’s just hope it will be half as fun as last month. I mean, this is kid is fun. And I am having the time of my life just hanging out with her all day. Now, don’t get me wrong, there are definitely some tantrum-filled moments where I want to throw myself out the window, but for the most part we just giggle, play, dance and sing all day. And now that she’s talking so well, we can actually have CONVERSATIONS. Meaning she’ll understand me when I say something like, Taylor, would you rather go to the park or color on the driveway this afternoon? And she’ll stop and think, and then chirp back, Color? Outside? Ruby come? And that’s it, we’ll spend the next few hours playing outside in the yard and turning our driveway into a toddler masterpiece.


But if the unstable southern weather prevents us from being outside, then nine-times-out-of-ten we’re probably coloring, playing with play-doh or watching cartoons, with Dora the Explorer still being her all-time fave. I can honestly say that she’s OBSESSED with Dora, Boots and the whole group of regular characters, and any time we see something with their likeness on it, it’s a giant ordeal. Oh, and THANKS, Nickelodeon! for being such giant sellouts. I can’t walk down a single aisle in the grocery store without Dora’s face being plastered on something – Soup, cereal, band-aides, gummie snacks, balloons.

I am also amazed at how little-T's memory has been soaking things up like a sponge lately. Certain things that trigger familiarity with places, toys and random objects. If we drive down Tunnel Road during the daylight, she knows that both our favorite Mexican restaurant and Cracker Barrel are on that street, and she’ll squeal out in excitement at the thought of devouring either bean dip or pancakes. And if we go play at a park that we have been to with Paige and Elliot, she’ll look around and throw her arms up in the air and say, Elly? Paige? She also fished out a small hair-clip from her purse the other day that my Mom gave her last month, showed it to me and said, Ya-Ya clippy. Yep, she’s a genius.

And Taylor has also turned a corner with playing with other kids her age at play dates and at the YMCA's Child Watch. And I must say that, from what I’ve witnessed, my little girl is getting pretty good at sharing with others. Whether it be her toy or someone elses, if she senses that she needs to hand it over to someone else, she does so without incident and moves onto whatever next treasure is close. Except if that toy is a baby doll. Then she kung-fu grips it and screams, NO! MINE! if someone tries to take it from her. Or if it’s any sort of food with sugar in it, she most definitely will NOT share any of her treats. So she’s a GOOD sharer, not GREAT. And as long as you don’t try to touch her baby doll or house her snacks, she’ll be your best friend.
We also had our first bully-incident at Child Watch this past month, as T was chowing down on some graham crackers and another little girl tried to snag one. And when Taylor said, NO!, the other little girl tried to take a bite out of my baby girl’s arm. And while the bite didn’t break the skin, Taylor pretty much lost her marbles and the girls that were on duty rushed into the work-out room to get me. And I don’t know if I have ever ran so fast as I did to get to my precious girl to hold her and kiss her boo-boo. And after about five minutes, and two servings of Dora gummie snacks, she had totally forgotten about it. And other than the bite-mark bruise that graced her pudgy forearm for two weeks, we haven’t noticed any aftereffects from the incident. Except we are now snack-free at Child Watch now. I’m not giving any more kids excuses to bite into those meaty limbs of hers.
And while that was an appalling episode this past month, even more horrifying were the numbers of Taylor-tantrums. Yep, we may be one month away from the big birthday, but she’s already got the temperament of a two year old. And while the frequency, duration or decibel-level haven’t gotten any better, I must say that I have been handling the outbursts with more ease. Meaning I am learning how to keep my cool during her come-aparts, and not allow both of us to turn into screaming lunatics. Because at first, it was really hard to just let this little person scream madly at me without having a natural reaction of screaming back. Try it. It’s hard. Chris would come home and try to calm me down, and I’d look at him with crazy-eyes and say, Me calm down! ME! Tell HER to calm down first. And then my rage would feed her rage and, a few times, I’m pretty sure the earth almost opened up and swallowed our house whole. It was that bad.
But now, NOW, I am learning to take deep breaths and walk away from her screaming and flailing her body on the floor. If I say the word NO to her in the kitchen and she starts having a melt down, I’ll stop whatever I’m doing and walk into the living room, taking deep yoga-like breaths the whole time. And I’ll let her cry. Or if I’m feeling really ambitious, I’ll announce to her that, Mom’s in the living room coloring. You should join me. It’s FUN. And then after a few final snorts and wails, I’ll hear her scamper into the living room with her red, tear-stained face, then she’ll smile at me and go, Color? And I’ll smile back, because I’ll feel like I just won that battle all while keeping my cool. Because no one wants to be The Screaming Mom. We all knew one growing up or know one now – And I most definitely do not want to be THAT mom. Until she throws her next tantrum. And then a new moral teeter-totter begins.

But obviously it’s not all come-aparts and yoga breathing. Like I said, most of the time it’s absolutely wonderful. Overly wonderful. Like the fact that everyday after she gets up from her nap, I go into her room, snatch her out of her crib and bring her into my room and we cuddle on the bed while watching cartoons. And she just snuggles into my body so perfectly, with my right arm curled around her warm body, her head nuzzled close to my chest and right underneath my neck and her arms wrapped around me. And we just snuggle, and she watches cartoons and I just kiss the top of her head and smell her hair. And it’s the best fifteen minutes of my day. Universe, if you could just let that still happen when she’s two, I’ll totally forgive you for letting it snow last week.